I woke this morning, once again feeling that familiar warmth, shine through the window. I simply lay there, as my skin began to tingle, warmth, heat, burn. Retracting my arm, even with a hot encounter of reality. I ignored you.
Walking to the bathroom, first time I see my face today. Starring at my reflection, I could hear my heartbeat roar within. Although I stared in the eyes of your wonderful creation, I brushed my teeth and washed the sounds away. I ignored you.
Rushed to my car. Door Slammed. Key in the ignition, twisted. Music, Noise blasted though my head, breaking in my mind and ripping my skull. With a thrust of my arm, the sounds stopped. Death Metal Music. Off. Those chants and screams were deja-vu of what was played last night. You were there, tried to speak and still. I ignored you.
Wheels screech. Breaks. Stop. Door slams as I make my way to that office. Laughs, and screams, I never really have much to say. Feeling alone, left out, like I don’t fit in. I look around me and thats all it takes, to realize I’m not different, we’re all the same. Tried to help me realize I don’t belong, and still I chose to fit in. Once again, I ignored you.
“There’s a party tonight!” I hear one of them say. Time Passes. Clock forward. I arrive at the rave. Dancing. Drinking. Wasting away. I thought to myself, this is where I belong, started making jokes, singing a horrible song. There she was looking back at me. Pleasure. Desire creeping all over me. She whispered a price, and I thought to say “There will be no food at home”, but all I cared about was today. Reminding me of whats right, and whats wrong to do, I simply decided I’ll keep ignoring you.
Drank. Danced. Kissed. Loved. Desire. Pleasure. Sex.
Today, although I’ll be a father in few, I have finally decided… I’ll no longer ignore you!
How long has it been since the day I met you?
